Who are you becoming?
I love this question. I can't get enough of it.
I'm a planner. I was born a planner, I am always organized, I have to know exactly what's happening and when.
Thanks to life and it's unexpected nature, I as the planner tend to over-plan, over-think and then dwell on what went wrong. Why life didn't just follow my instructions and the perfect brick path with beautiful perfect flowers organized in neat little rows on each side according to color... beats the heck out of me, I love my path.
The catch is that my path and it's flowers are an illusion.
I don't have a plan, I have the illusion of a plan.
The illusion of security.
The more I ask myself this question, the more I understand what the answer really is.
I can plan what I want to do next, I can act like I have it all figured out, I can name all seven of my children (yeah, seven), I can write all day about what I'm going to do next, but after awhile you begin to realize that your 'plan' is only as good as the breath your taking now and in two short seconds or maybe five if you take big breaths, everything about your plan, can and probably will change.
So at some point you relinquish the idea that you have any kind of control over exactly what happens next and you start putting into motion something better.
You become what you believe, what you think, what you spend hours pouring your heart and soul into. You become what you follow, what you watch, what you listen to.
It reminds me of a quote, "bad company corrupts good character." This is true for all things, any kind of company will change or 'corrupt' your state of being.
It will begin to influence who you are becoming.
So who are you becoming?
Are you someone who follows trends, celebrities and Facebook friends?
Are you someone who spends so much time reminiscing about who you were, that you don't give any thought to who you are, or who you will be?
Maybe you're the girl who tries so desperately to put everything in a organized box.
The girl who is passionate about living and wants to try everything at least once.
Someone who believes there is good in everything and wants to have seven kids.
What next?
You take the passion for life out of it's perfect bin and you trust in something greater than yourself. You ask yourself who you are becoming and instead of giving the perfect answer with the perfect label, you let yourself live a little, and you watch as the most marvelous things begin to unfold in front of you. Marvelous things, that are far from your perfect path and were never a part of your plan to begin with.
I am becoming who I was always meant to be.
No plan, no path, just me and my heart full of passion,
LIVING the marvelous life I never imagined.
You know it's a question worth asking, when it has the possibility to change everything,
Kelci
